The only obstacle to grace, according to David Ricco in When Love Meets Fear, is CONTROL. Ricco goes on to describe his anecdote for control as the “void, the blank space in which we don’t know what the outcome of a situation will be, but choose to enter the situation anyway. Jesus walked into the desert, looking for the void, wanting to be there for 40 days and 40 nights.” Jesus didn’t know what was waiting for him there, but He released control of his life and trusted His Father with the outcome.
For a while now I’ve considered myself a recovering control freak, but I’m not so sure about the recovering part of that statement. What the Lord is revealing to me is that I still have a long way to go in the journey of surrender. In another part of his book Ricco says, “We do not really control to get our way as much as to avoid how bad we will feel if we do not get our way.” I have had to be honest with myself and admit that I like to control just about every outcome in my life. It’s safer that way, it keeps me from having to deal with the pain of disappointment and discouragement. Unfortunately, this really limits God’s activity in my life. He is interested in my complete surrender to his ways. I am beginning to see what He means by, “anyone who wants to save his life will lose it, but anyone who loses his life for my sake will find it.” (Matt 16:25). It’s a slow death, but I am convinced more than ever that this is the path that leads to true life. I know I want God’s grace, so I am doing my best today to release control of things and trust God with the outcome. This journey of releasing control is a hard one, but the fruit of it is proving to be worth any difficulties along the way.