Trying to follow Jesus is an interesting thing. If you have been at it for a while, chances are you have gone through a season of trying to do things for God. After all, it’s a natural reaction. As adults we receive something and we often want to reciprocate in order to make sure things are “even.” We have a hard time receiving much of anything. Gifts, compliments, love, affection, fill in the blank. Once we begin to realize all the Lord has done for us, our tendency is to starting doing things for him. This gets tiring in a hurry and never satisfies. Paul had a similar experience after his encounter with Jesus:
“What actually took place is this: I tried keeping rules and working my head off to please God, and it didn’t work. So I quit being a “law man” so that I could be God’s man. Christ’s life showed me how, and enabled me to do it. I identified myself completely with him. Indeed, I have been crucified with Christ. My ego is no longer central. It is no longer important that I appear righteous before you or have your good opinion, and I am no longer driven to impress God. Christ lives in me. The life you see me living is not “mine,” but it is lived by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me. I am not going to go back on that.” (Galatians 2:20 The Message)
Our only part is to put ourselves in a posture to be with the Holy Trinity. It’s all about response, not initiation. It’s about sitting in the presence of God allowing Him to shape and mold us into who He created us to be.