One pattern of behavior that always seems to get me tripped up in addiction is feeling justified. It seems as if I purposefully let things pile up on me to where I knew I couldn’t carry the weight, and then would use my addiction to cope. I feel that I worked so hard, was so burdened, so busy; it’s was okay for me to indulge a little in the flesh. Bottom line, “I deserve it”, I have the right to be sinful for a little while.
The truth is that I’m not justified in anything I do. The only justification I have is in Jesus. Anything I try to do on my own leads me down the path of destruction. To combat this cycle, I feel I need to do what Paul called ‘praying without ceasing’ in 1 Thessalonians 5:17. As these things come at me throughout the day trying to literally ‘dog pile’ me, I stand up in prayer and bring them before Christ as we are instructed to do in Philippians 4:6, “do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God.” And let me tell you, it’s amazing to see how so many of these things that looked like heavy boulders at first, bounce of my shield of faith as non-threatening, tiny pebbles. After all, Jesus says in Matthew 11:30 that ‘my yoke is easy and my burden is light.’ Sounds a lot better to me than being stressed out.