Belief Redefined: Cancer 

As you may know I have been working with an editor to publish a book on belief and identity later this year. Two weeks ago, my editor and I were on a morning call finalizing a chapter titled Redefining Belief. We were discussing the interaction between Jesus and two blind men in Matt 9. The question he asked them in verse 28, “do you believe that I am able to do this?” was a big part of our discussion and came back to all but smack me in the face later that day.
The question was highlighted in my life 10 years ago during a time of personal chaotic turmoil. At that time, an honest answer to the question would’ve been “No, I don’t really believe that you can do this God, so I am going to do it. I am in control.” I realized that day, things needed to change in my life if I wanted any chance at a future apart from worry and fear. I’ll tell more later, but a journey to learning what it means to believe began. 
Thankfully, that all went down ten years ago and Jesus has led me to be able to answer the question, “Yes Lord, I believe that you can do this.” Because, fast forward back to the conversation with my editor two weeks ago, what followed later that same day in the waiting room where I was waiting for my wife Anna…. She should have been walking out any minute when a nurse came out and said, “Mr. Petree, I need you to come with me.” Five minutes later I was sitting next to my Bride hearing the Doctor speak the unthinkable…..“I’m sorry to tell you, but you have colon cancer.”

The next few minutes were a bit of a blurr, our heads were spinning. The Doc’s voice. Wait….what did she just say? Matthew 9. The c-word. Is this happening? Two blind men…….. C-word again. THEN JESUS. And CLARITY about our answer to the question. “Yes Lord, we believe that you can do this.”

Anna and I, along with many others, have spent the past two weeks walking with Jesus in this new reality. And we’ve been collectively answering “Yes Lord, we believe that you can do this.” It has not been easy. Much more than difficult in fact. But, we are doing it, and we are strong. A thousand voices strong….. all collaborating in the “Yes Lord, we believe that you can do this.” Please join us in believing…..we need you….I’ll tell more later this week as it is quite evident, 

Aslan is on the move…

3 replies on “Belief Redefined: Cancer ”

[…] Our first two days were a blur. Disbelief, fear, “How is this possible?”, sleeplessness and anger. We kept thinking, “This can’t be possible! We take such good care of our bodies!” On night 2 Anna tapped my arm and through tears said, “Shawn, I can’t sleep, I am so scared. I just need to be close to you.” As I held my wife a verse ran through my mind, “You will keep in perfect peace those whose minds are steadfast, because they trust in you.” (Is. 26:3) I let that go through my mind over and over again as Anna calmed down. […]

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