Are we worthy??? We may say we are not worthy, but do we really believe it? Do we see ourselves as unworthy, really? No way! We see ourselves as good, worthy. Any time we dare to do a little self test of our worthiness, we need only pay attention to our inner thoughts when we are in a situation to judge another person. Maybe their behavior is sinful, maybe they look or dress differently than we do, maybe they value different things. Our subconscious quickly begins to justify our own behavior, our own value system and we quickly deem ourselves worthy.
In Luke 7 Jesus encounters a man who has every reason to consider himself worthy. In fact his friends come to Jesus on behalf of him and say, “He (this centurion general in the army) is worthy for you to grant his request (to heal his servant); for he loves our nation and it was he who built us our synagogue.” (v.4-5) The centurion man doesn’t see it that way at all! When he hears that Jesus is coming toward his house, he sent these same friends to say to Jesus, “Lord, do not trouble Yourself further, for I am not worthy for You to come under my roof; for this reason I did not even consider myself worthy to come to You, but just say the word, and my servant will be healed.” (v.6-7) Jesus response: “I say to you, not even in Israel have I found such great faith.” (v.9)
What would it look like to begin to see ourselves as not even worthy to enter into the presence of our Lord? For those of us who often get caught up believing that we are worthy, we can easily slip into the mindset that we are doing God a favor by making time for Him, by coming to Him. It makes sense why many of the saints of the faith simply recommend silence and listening as the primary “activities” while in His presence.